?Again, the Kingdom of Heaven can be illustrated by the story of a man going on a long trip. He called together his servants and entrusted his money to them while he was gone. He gave five bags of silver to one, two bags of silver to another, and one bag of silver to the last?dividing it in proportion to their abilities. He then left on his trip.
?The servant who received the five bags of silver began to invest the money and earned five more. The servant with two bags of silver also went to work and earned two more. But the servant who received the one bag of silver dug a hole in the ground and hid the master?s money.
?After a long time their master returned from his trip and called them to give an account of how they had used his money. The servant to whom he had entrusted the five bags of silver came forward with five more and said, ?Master, you gave me five bags of silver to invest, and I have earned five more.?
?The master was full of praise. ?Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let?s celebrate together!?
?The servant who had received the two bags of silver came forward and said, ?Master, you gave me two bags of silver to invest, and I have earned two more.?
?The master said, ?Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let?s celebrate together!?
?Then the servant with the one bag of silver came and said, ?Master, I knew you were a harsh man, harvesting crops you didn?t plant and gathering crops you didn?t cultivate. 25 I was afraid I would lose your money, so I hid it in the earth. Look, here is your money back.?
?But the master replied, ?You wicked and lazy servant! If you knew I harvested crops I didn?t plant and gathered crops I didn?t cultivate, why didn?t you deposit my money in the bank? At least I could have gotten some interest on it.?
?Then he ordered, ?Take the money from this servant, and give it to the one with the ten bags of silver. To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away. Now throw this useless servant into outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth
I attend a Bible Study on Monday evenings and we looked at the parable of the Talents a few months ago. During the study the group leader asked everyone to share a strength or talent that they have. When we got to me I said something along the lines of “Welll….I just don’t know.” I then shared about how I have taken many different spiritual gift inventories and other random tests to help you see how God has gifted you. And I always get different results. So in short. I can’t figure out how God has gifted me. And I shared how frustrating this has been for me.
Let me tell you how I have always look at this parable Jesus shared in regards to my life. I have always been convinced that I am the guy who received one bag of silver or you know, the guy who got one thing. I am that guy. And what I learned from this parable is to not do what the guy with the one bag does in this parable. So I have been living to simply not bury that one thing in the ground and at least earn some interest on it for God or be able to give him a bit more than He has given me. I have never considered myself to be the guy who received 5 bags of silver or , the guy who received a lot. So I have always been trying to figure out what my one thing is.
Well I was shocked when the group leader, Kerry Eastridge, said something similar to. “Jeff, you are the guy God has given much too.” He said I am the guy with the 5 bags of silver. What? Me? He shattered my view of myself. I left this study thinking. “If I am the guy who God has given much too then I have a problem. Because I am not doing diddly squat with what he has given me.” Since this time others have also shared the same thing with me. It appears that it has just been me, not seeing myself clearly. This inability to see myself has been such a huge hinderance and it really wasn’t until this study that I am beginning to really see that I need to be doing a lot, because I have truly received much.
Now I can’t list off a bunch of talents (maybe someone else can leave some comments to this regard as I still can’t really see myself well enough to even begin any kind of listing process), but I know when God needs me to do something I become gifted to do it. Kerry said I am more like God’s go to guy. A guy that is simply available and God can use him for whatever needs to be done. That my giftings change depending on where God has me. Now this seems to explain why each time I take a spiritual giftedness test or inventory I always get different answers.
So now I am facing a new reality. One of much more responsibility than I had ever thought could fall on my shoulders. I mean seriously, I am Jeff. Not Billy Graham or [name some great spiritual leader here]. But I recognize that I need to be using the giftings God has given me for His Kingdom. And I need to recognize that God does have something for me that is more than just earning a bit of interest for Him, that He has given me a lot so that I can bless others a lot. That I can help his Kingdom grow.
So…. what to do now…..
I guess I need to find that Lion and begin chasing it, and not worry so much about my abilities, God will provide what is needed for any task that He may have for me. I need to trust God and take pursuit.